i need help

i need something or someone

i feel fucked

i feel insane

i am completely alone

i am sleeping in a hostel tomorrow night in the city that the people i love most reside in greatest quantity

i am sleeping in a hostel tomorrow night in this city

why am i here

why do i bother

why have i ever bothered

there is nothing

this is nothing

it is all nothing

and it will be nothing for the rest of forever